Ship: Himuro Tatsuya/Murasakibara Atsushi Fandom: Kuroko no Basuke Major Tags: None Other Tags: Angst Word Count: 414
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It all ends when Tatsuya graduates.
Atsushi is standing there, his lower lip bitten between his teeth to keep his emotions at bay as he said his farewells to Tatsuya, not yet realising just how permanent they would be. Not until Tatsuya tells him, an apologetic smile, but the decision already made.
"You understand why we have to do this, don't you?" Tatsuya asks, and Atsushi wants to say no, he wants to say stop this, but he can't make his voice work at all. He just ends up nodding numbly, because he doesn't know what else to do.
Tatsuya touches his hand, the touch warm and lingering for a moment, but instead of linking their fingers like he usually does, he just pats Atsushi on the arm. "You'll be fine. Give everyone hell next year, won't you? Make us proud."
Atsushi swallows around the lump in his throat and mumbles, "Don't tell me what to do."
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Tatsuya moves to Tokyo, to attend university there. It's hours away from Akita and Atsushi knows that the distance would be a strain on them.
He looks at Kuroko and Kagami, somehow managing to make things work even though the distance between them is much greater, and can't help but feel angry about it. Maybe it's on purpose, he thinks to himself. Maybe Tatsuya doesn't want to try and fail at something that Kagami is succeeding at.
He's a coward, Atsushi thinks angrily. They're both cowards. He should have said something. Anything.
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Being without Tatsuya is more difficult than Atsushi ever thought it would be. It's the small things, so small that Atsushi didn't even realise that they mattered to him at all. He doesn't care that Tatsuya's not there to bring him bags of chips, or to bribe him with candy if he wants something done. It's the silent presence by his side, not just at school but outside of it as well, because they used to spend all of their spare time together. It's the knowledge that he has something to talk to, or to listen to, when he wants to open himself up but doesn't want to share. It's the way Tatsuya's smile would make his heart feel light, or just hearing his voice and knowing that he's smiling. Atsushi misses all of it and perhaps they've only known each other for two years, but in that time, he hasn't once imagined living a life without Tatsuya there.
FILL: TEAM KAGEYAMA TOBIO/OIKAWA TOORU, G
Fandom: Kuroko no Basuke
Major Tags: None
Other Tags: Angst
Word Count: 414
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It all ends when Tatsuya graduates.
Atsushi is standing there, his lower lip bitten between his teeth to keep his emotions at bay as he said his farewells to Tatsuya, not yet realising just how permanent they would be. Not until Tatsuya tells him, an apologetic smile, but the decision already made.
"You understand why we have to do this, don't you?" Tatsuya asks, and Atsushi wants to say no, he wants to say stop this, but he can't make his voice work at all. He just ends up nodding numbly, because he doesn't know what else to do.
Tatsuya touches his hand, the touch warm and lingering for a moment, but instead of linking their fingers like he usually does, he just pats Atsushi on the arm. "You'll be fine. Give everyone hell next year, won't you? Make us proud."
Atsushi swallows around the lump in his throat and mumbles, "Don't tell me what to do."
•
Tatsuya moves to Tokyo, to attend university there. It's hours away from Akita and Atsushi knows that the distance would be a strain on them.
He looks at Kuroko and Kagami, somehow managing to make things work even though the distance between them is much greater, and can't help but feel angry about it. Maybe it's on purpose, he thinks to himself. Maybe Tatsuya doesn't want to try and fail at something that Kagami is succeeding at.
He's a coward, Atsushi thinks angrily. They're both cowards. He should have said something. Anything.
•
Being without Tatsuya is more difficult than Atsushi ever thought it would be. It's the small things, so small that Atsushi didn't even realise that they mattered to him at all. He doesn't care that Tatsuya's not there to bring him bags of chips, or to bribe him with candy if he wants something done. It's the silent presence by his side, not just at school but outside of it as well, because they used to spend all of their spare time together. It's the knowledge that he has something to talk to, or to listen to, when he wants to open himself up but doesn't want to share. It's the way Tatsuya's smile would make his heart feel light, or just hearing his voice and knowing that he's smiling. Atsushi misses all of it and perhaps they've only known each other for two years, but in that time, he hasn't once imagined living a life without Tatsuya there.
He doesn't know how to do it now.