OKAY the first thing that struck me as I was reading through was that bit about the streetlights??? Because I haven't even re-read my own fic in a while and I don't even know if I mentioned anything about streetlights but like?? the orange light?? that's such an image that I already had associated w/ these two in this scenario so like A+ good job way to take an image straight from my head.

SO FROM THE BEGINNING:

first stanza is so!!!! the balance between pain/pleasure give/take etc is [okay hand emojis] and its really solidified by that last line, because "arching towards you" is just a thing thats like Yes, this is Wanted,

"this is how you love him" IS JUST EVERYTHING. Because maybe its not how otehrs would do it, maybe its not right or whatever?? but this is how he shows his love and its what they both need probably I'm ????? (i run out of words very quickly)

I love how you form the sex with so little words like,, just the simple image of his palm flat, holding his weight is enough ???? And tobio is so wrecked.

GAH and then the reconsidering, the maybe he can love him more than one way, maybe he can love him gentle and innocent in the way he couldn't before? because maybe people grow and feelings change and that is the essence of oikage and IM ON FIRE MATTIE I LOVE YOU